brokenfairy

always and forever broken

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 07:02:31 GMT

No matter how hard I try, I will always be doubtful. Why? You never gave me enough reasons to be secure. You're forgetful, not sweet, not thoughtful, too friendly, but why am I so in love with you? I do I keep holding on? You don't have time to reply to my messages but you have time replying to other girls' messages? I was at my best with you? Why can't you try harder. Love me better... Is this how you love a girl? Or are you still stuck with your past heartache? I don't know if I deserve this. All I know is that I'm not sure if you really love me. If you don't then just tell me...

I am totally broken...

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 01:40:36 GMT

Love... it has to be felt by two people. Its has to be mutual, not one-sided... I guess he was thinking that I don't love him anymore. Don't I really love him? Even I am not so sure about what I really feel. All I know is that it hurts me to see him in pain. If I don't love him anymore, why do I still feel that pain... Why does it still linger?

I can't stand you...

Mon, 05 May 2008 13:03:25 GMT

It was a mistake, being with you, liking you, and falling for you. Because, you are a jerk... You're using me and it took a long time for me to realize how much of a jerk you are. I hate myself for allowing you to do those things to me. But, one thing remains deep in my heart. Tama na. Ayoko na. Layuan mo na ako. Parang awa mo na. If there's still some kindness left inside you, just let me go. Let's stop pretending that we're so in love with each other. Makakalimutan mo ba ang araw na iyon kong mahal nyo talaga ang isa't isa.... hah... cnong niloloko mo. YOU SUCK!!!

LOVE and MEMORIES

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 13:03:08 GMT

Lovely, you're always lovely

A vision  You were the one

Now I am stuck inside a memory

You forgot about our destiny

You buried me  Didn't you?

Didn't you?

Love me faster than the devil

Run me straight into the ground

Drowning deep inside your water

Drowning deep inside your sound

You're always floating  A vapor  That I couldn't see

Here I am stuck inside a yesterday

Everything has given way  You fell from me  Didn't you?

Didn't you?

Love me faster than the devil

Run me straight into the ground

Drowning deep inside your water

Drowning deep inside your sound

Love me faster than the devil

Run me straight into the ground

Drowning deep inside your water

Drown in love and memories

Maybe I am a crowded mind

I watch your eyes glaze over

Stared down at the floor

You were amazing to me

I was amazing to you

But here we go again

Didn't you  Love me faster than the devil

Run me straight into the ground

Drowning deep inside your water

Drowning deep inside your sound

Love me faster than the devil

Run me straight into the ground

Drowning deep inside your water

Drown in love and memories

Adore You by Nikki Hassman

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 07:28:29 GMT

Are there words enough
To describe the way I feel?
Can a silly crush
Turn into something so real

In a thousand ways
In a thousand hidden places
You have touched my heart
And the feeling never changes...

I'm crazy for, lonely for, I adore you
Crazy for, craving more, I adore you
I adore you

If the world were mine
I would lay it at your feet
Just to see you shine
It's the only thing I need..

I'm crazy for, lonely for, I adore you
Crazy for, craving more, I adore you
I adore you

[BRIDGE]
With every kiss, every touch
Oh, you have the power
Oh, to life me up
Oh, and I'm...

I'm crazy for, lonely for, I adore you
Crazy for, craving more, I adore you
I adore you

I'm crazy for, lonely for, I adore you
Crazy for, craving more, I adore you
I adore you

I like this song... Actually it's not the lyrics, it's the melody and on how she delivered the song... passionate ... sweet... gentle...

despair and totally broken

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 03:59:16 GMT

Sometimes we do things we never thought we could do. Things that hurt people. I don't know how hurt they could be. If you want to be happy, sometimes the price you have to pay is the sadness of other people. So you can not be perfectly happy because you hurt people that you care for. So you choose to be alone and let some people in your lives go. Because whatever you choose there's always somebody who gets hurt. And now you choose to hurt yourself. And it feels stupid. You want to drown yourself with vodka but that would be stupid too. It will just temporarily make you forget but when you wake up the next day it's still there. Tormented you work with a sad look on your face as you ride the LRT, and you feel like an actress in a very crappy movie. How long will this be. Hope it won't be too long. It sucks... It's slowly killing you.

sometimes love isn't enough

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 12:10:34 GMT

i called you up and ended it all. you didn't even try to make me stay. you watched me leave with your imagination and never dared to ask me why. you said it was me who gave it all up, but wasn't it you who allowed it all to happen? it wasn't entirely my fault but you made it sound like i was the only one who made things wrong. you gave up on me too... maybe what i did was right, it proved me something... You aren't that strong enough to fight for me. you let me slip away...

letting go...

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 04:42:51 GMT

today i am letting go of someone i loved for more than three years. he's always been the one. i thought we'd last forever, but the time has come and the feeling is gone. i never thought i would be the one to end it. it definitely sucks. hurting someone you care for. though the love isn't as intense before, it's still hard breaking up with a very nice guy. but i have to move on. life for now won't be for romantic relationships but for different adventures:) let go, move on and live a great life!!!

Still

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 17:03:44 GMT

It's been more than a week but the feeling still grows and lingers. I didn't want this to happen. I'm not ready for this kind of feeling. If this is real, then I'm afraid I made a big mistake. I should've never did that that one stupid thing. It made things even worse. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I'm afraid that soon, I will. Security vs taking chances. Loving someone because you feel that he'll always be loyal to you or taking chances in loving someone you've left before.

So this this love? I thought I knew love too well. I thought I am an expert in love... I guess I'm wrong. LOVE is now showing its true colors to me. So this is how it feels...

The Scientist Lyrics

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 06:52:41 GMT

Come up to meet you, Tell you I�m sorry,
You don�t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, And ask me your questions,
Aww let�s go back to the start

Runnin� in circles, [sounds like] Comin� our tails,
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It�s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aww take me back to the start

I was just guessin�, At numbers and figures,
Pullin� the puzzles apart
Questions of science, Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, Come back to haunt me,
Oh when I rush to the start

Runnin� in circles, [sounds like] Chasin� our tails,
Comin� back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Aww It�s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I�m goin� back to the start

Sometimes, you realize all the pain you've caused him when you see him move on and finally forget about you...
There may be second chances, but it takes guts, courage and less pride for you to have that one more chance...