Sometimes we do things we never thought we could do. Things that hurt people. I don't know how hurt they could be. If you want to be happy, sometimes the price you have to pay is the sadness of other people. So you can not be perfectly happy because you hurt people that you care for. So you choose to be alone and let some people in your lives go. Because whatever you choose there's always somebody who gets hurt. And now you choose to hurt yourself. And it feels stupid. You want to drown yourself with vodka but that would be stupid too. It will just temporarily make you forget but when you wake up the next day it's still there. Tormented you work with a sad look on your face as you ride the LRT, and you feel like an actress in a very crappy movie. How long will this be. Hope it won't be too long. It sucks... It's slowly killing you.